Pardon my Sentimentality, I wrote this a couple of days ago in Day One and felt it would be a nice thing to pair with an image. Remember I was talking about getting lost in details? Well this is me sharing one of those moments, perhaps a bit personal but why not share. Desktop links below!
Today is the first day in forever I didn’t have to wake up and worry about getting to work on time, or missing a call, or fear I may be forgetting something. I woke up early, with not enough sleep behind me from the late night prior but I forced myself up anyway and went to a local weekly farmers market with YoungDoo. I felt connected to all the people who were there to celebrate life and food and good health. We bought vegetable plants, strawberries, and ate fresh pancakes then afterward spent a short while at the community garden planting the new veggies and enjoying the perfect spring weather.
I arrived at home tired but not ready to give up and nap so I put on a show and relaxed a while on the couch. After a simple lunch of food from the market I decided to light some incense, put on some music, and lay down a while for a much needed and deserved siesta…
…and that’s where I lay as I write this, quietly in bed, on this calm afternoon feeling time tick by slowly enough to recognize that I have a beating heart for the first time in what feels like months. Cool air falls through the open window beside me, incense smoke swirls about unpredictably in the warm breeze and casts a calm over the room I usually only get to daydream about through old photographs. Chatter sneaks in from people walking by outside and the meandering guitar of a calm song in my ears is in sync with my slowing breath…
This is surely the meaning of life. Love is in this space and I feel free. This is the reason we fight through the stress, the reason we try harder and harder every day to find happiness. Because it’s real, and waiting patiently for us to recognize its beautiful embrace.